Gluttony

Today was a very good day, for the most part. I went over to my parent's house, and we had a little family get-together. I really love my family a lot, and I'm fortunate to say that we all live within 40 minutes of one another. So we do get to see each other a lot.

I brought some appetizers, as I usually do. I purchased a dip from the grocery store, and I made a taco dip. This taco dip is just something that I threw together a little while ago, and everyone seems to like it.

Well, as I am wont to do sometimes, I grazed all afternoon. I used to eat way too much, and then I realized that I really didn't like that feeling of being full or stuffed. So it has been quite a long time since I have eaten like that.

Unfortunately I overdid it today. I ate some of what I brought, and then my mom also had a good appetizer. I also had a couple of beers, and I really wasn't hungry by the time that dinner was served.

But that didn't keep me from eating. However, I did eat a small amount after dinner, and I tried to prevent that feeling of being stuffed. I tried, but I was not successful.

After dinner my stomach started to hurt, and I just felt so run-down. I was uncomfortable, and I was mad at myself for getting out of control. It wouldn't have been so bad if I would have gone straight home, but my mom wanted to have a game night.

My brother and his family left pretty soon after dinner, and then I stayed behind with my parents, and my sister and her husband. We had a lot of fun playing games, but I was miserable the whole time. I DON'T EVER WANT TO FEEL LIKE THAT AGAIN.

So my goal this week is to get my butt in the gym. I need to control my portions more, and I need to stick to my food plan, which I'll discuss later. I made a mistake today, but I can't change the past. I need to move on, and work on keeping this from happening again. That is one of the reasons why I am doing this blog. I need to put my mistakes out there for the world to see.